So much anxiety, so little time.........left

Ok, so yesterday was fun. I had lunch at Mallow Run Winery here on the south side with some great friends. We sat outside and enjoyed some wine with cheese and crackers and cucumber dip. It was truly a great day.

The wine put me out though! I came home and took a nap on the couch. I was woken up by Mocha sniffing and licking my mouth, face,and you get the idea.
Paul came home and once again, I decided I was too tired to go for a bike ride so, once again, I didn't. Nope, I don't feel guilty at all, well maybe just a little.

Later that night we played Texas Hold-em at Marji and Steve's house. I came in second, again. I had fun and that is all that matters to me.

I am home at midnight, and ready for bed. I can't take my friend, Mr. Ativan , because I have to take Rachel to the school at 5am for her King's Island trip. I know what you are thinking, have Paul or one of the boys take her, but the guilt of me not going gets the better of me and I want to do this. I turn the TV on and before I know it, the alarm was going off and it was go time.
Rachel threatened me as she left this morning at 5am, she said,"I am doing the bungee cord ball ride mom!" She is crazy when it comes to thrill rides! My friends will have to endure that one for me, just this once! She will sit in a steel ball, next to her friend and be pulled down, then released into the air. She has been begging to do this ride since she was 5 or 6. She is 12.

All I keep thinking about as Monday grows closer, is the fact that these are the last days with a part of my body that I have grown accustom to. The last Saturday, Sunday and then boom, Monday is here. To say I am nervous is an understatement! I am a nurse as you all know, so many, and I mean many scenarios have been going through my mind. I try to block them out, but sometimes they get the better of me. I am going to try and keep busy this Saturday and try not to worry. I am already dressed and ready for the bike ride and I am going to play corn hole later. Rachel does not have to picked up until 9:30 this evening and the boys will do that for me. They have agreed to help out around the house today and they promised to put all of their clean laundry away!