I'll be having a good day, when all of a sudden, it's dawns on me that I have breast cancer. I start to cry, like I am right now, and It is a feeling and sensation that I truly cannot overcome easily. I have to just let it out and cry and hope I don;t get it again, but I know I will. I now cry in all sorts of places and I look odd doing it, but it is what it is!
One thing that keeps me up is my family. I am so very proud of them for helping me, driving me around and just being there with me and playing games and hanging out. My friends have been there too. Have I forgotten to mention how very generous and loving all of my friends have been? Well I am sorry it has taken me this long to do so. From many, many dishes of food, candy, chips, drinks, gift cards and clothing, I am forever humbled and grateful. My friend Karen also made me a chemo quilt! She had my family and some of our good friends in the hood sign a square, then she quilted them together with a poker pattern (surprising I know), then she presented it to me! I cried while I was reading each square. They all mean so much to me, especially since people took the time out of their day to do it. I even got a message from Mocha and Dixie! I will have to post it on here some how. I will figure it out.
Well, I was really hoping that my chemo will start Monday, and it might, if I get my drain out early that morning. I pray that I do because I want to get this going and get on with my life. I am grateful for everyday, for everyday is a blessing to me!