today is Wednesday........

I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. The night thought and worry about my port have kept me up. My port is good but it is tilted and this, my friends, if your
're a nurse, can cause some anxiety. they did have a bit of trouble getting into it the first time so, one week from now and yes, I'm already worrying about it. I will get my second round of chemo next Thursday; any takers? im looking for a companion of sorts to sit with me and keep me company and hold my hand if needed. I know I will get some offers out there! I get scared very easily, but yes, I am strong and brave, but sometimes, I need a little reassurance.

Today, I met up with some friends ant BJ's Brewhouse in Greenwood. Curtis was my driver and dropped me curbside at the door. I darn near cancelled. I just wasn't sure if I was ready to go outside and sit for lunch. Well, I did, and it was lovely. I didn't eat too much but feel satisfied. My pizza was not the best I ever had, but I think that is from the chemo changing my palate again. I received some gift cards from many people and from CCU, where I work. I always said, how much I love the people I work with and I truly work in the best unit in that hospital. I stand behind that saying as I have had so many people praying for me and wishing me well. I feel blessed to work where I do. I promise to work on all of the thank you's also, it's been on the back burner, but I need to get moving on it!

It is also nice to recieve little cards in the mail of inspiration from friends and family. I love them and they truly do help me! I know my unit is special because at the very same time I became sick, one of our other nurses delivered triplets and is also going through some hard times and I know that these group of people are helping her also and praying for her three girls as well. Amy, I pray that everything will work out for your three beautiful girls and that they get to come home as soon as they are ready! I only worked two days a week, and I hardly ever complained about going in, but I have to say, I miss the weekly grind of it all. We always made the best out of every situation, no matter what. Laughter kept us sane!

As for how I am feeling; I feel great today physically and emotionally now. I am a bit weepy though. I am so touched at the generosity of so many people. I hope I never have to repay them the same service, but if I did, I know I will definitely go overboard!
Want to hear the best news? I just applied for cleaning for a reason .org. My friend Julie sent me the link and I can get my house cleaned professionally once a month for 4 months while I'm in treatment! Yay! I hope it goes through, my house needs it!

Love all of you and everyday is a blessing from God!