AUGUST 2ND

I CAN'T TELL YOU THAT I'VE BEEN FEELING GOOD, CAUSE I HAVEN'T. HOWEVER, I THINK TODAY, IS GOING TO BE BETTER. I CAME BACK FROM VACATION, WENT TO CHEMO, FOUGHT JET LAG, AND FELT PRETTY CRAPPY ALL WEEK. NO, NO, OF COURSE I'VE BEEN EATING (NEVER A PROBLEM), BUT I FEEL SO TIRED ALL THE TIME. I THINK I AM BACK ON TRACK, MAYBE.

I HAD A VERY BUSY WEEK OF GETTING BACK INTO INDIAN MODE AND UNPACKING AND DOING LAUNDRY. I AM IN FULL PURGE MODE! I AM THROWING THINGS AWAY THAT NO LINGER NEED TO BE PRESENT IN THIS HOUSE. IT IS A VERY GOOD FEELING TO GET RID OF THINGS. I DID MY CLOSET BEFORE VACATION AND NOW I AM DOING THE PANTRY, THE LAUNDRY ROOM, ETC......
NOW IF I CAN GET MY KIDS TO DO THE SAME, WE WILL BE IN BUSINESS.

I RECEIVED A VERY SPECIAL PACKAGE IN THE MAIL FROM MY COUSIN SUSAN. SHE LIVES IN THE DC AREA. I KNOW THAT SHE HERSELF HAS NOT BEEN FEELING WELL, SO FOR HER TO SEND ME THIS CARE PACKAGE MEANS THAT MUCH MORE! IN IT, WERE SEVERAL WELL THOUGHT OUT ITEMS. SODOKU OF COURSE, 20 QUESTIONS, MAGAZINES (ALL FOOD RELATED), CHOCOLATE AND THE QUINTESSENTIAL BAG OF UTZ HOT POTATO CHIPS! SHE THOUGHT OF EVERYTHING. ONE OF THE MAGAZINES HAD AN UPDATE ON CHRISTINA APPLEGATE; CANCER SURVIVOR NOW, SO SHE SENT IT TO ME. I READ IT LAST NIGHT AND ALTHOUGH SHE DID NOT HAVE CHEMO OR RADIATION, SHE DID HAVE BOTH BREASTS REMOVED AND IS GOING THO=ROUGH ALOT OF THE SAME EMOTIONS THAT I AM. SHE DID SAY, IT AFFECTS HER EVERYDAY, SOMETHING I WOULD HOPE WOULD PASS. I DID NOT LIKE TO HEAR THAT! AM I GOING TO HAVE A DAY WHERE I DONT' THINK,"CRAP. I HAD BREAST CANCER?" PROBABLY NOT. I WILL NEED COUNSELING! SHUT UP, I KNOW, SOME OF YOU THINK I NEEDED COUNSELING BEFORE! HAHA

SO , I AM GOING TO CONTINUE TO GO THROUGH THIS HOUSE AND PURGE TODAY. I AM ALSO GOING TO GO TO KOHLS ACCORDING TO MY DAUGHTER AND SHOP FOR CLOTHES FOR HER. I WAS ALSO GIVEN A BIBLE BY MY NEIGHBOR, AS I TOLD HER THAT I DONT CURRENTLY HAVE ONE THAT I CAN READ. I STARTED READING IT, AND SHE GOT ME THE VERSION THAT EXPLAINS THE MEANING. A BIBLE FOR DUMMIES, THAT'S ME! I LOVE IT THOUGH AND IT HELPS TO KEEP ME FOCUSED AND CONCENTRATE ON WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT!

BLESS THIS DAY!
KATHY